Wednesday, December 29, 2010

I'm not a Pessimist!

Recently my uncle's comment about me being a pessimist got me thinking.
If I'm a pessimist, how can I be happy with life's simple things?

Okay, this is going to be long...

So my answer is:
I'm a Perfectionist Realist who has Mood Swings.

The typical question to tell a difference between an optimist and a pessimist.

Is the glass half full or half empty?

Optimist: Half full.
Pessimist: Half empty.

But is that all? What about the rest who doesn't feel that it's half full or half empty?

My friend asked me the same question, and I said it's okay, so I'm probably a Realist.

Realist: There is half a glass of water.
Cynic: Don't drink it, someone probably spat in it!

This is an interesting statement I found made by others on being a pessimist and a realist:
"Big difference between being realistic and being pessimistic. Be optimistic, and you'll very often be disappointed. Be realistic, and you'll never be disappointed but once in a while you might be pleasantly surprised."

Wait, but that's not all.

Surely I have to be unhappy and have negative thoughts due to some other reasons?
It must certainly be my overly high and unachievable goal for myself?

Interestingly enough, perfectionists are usually unhappy because they're highly critical of themselves and others (not so much of the "others" case for me because I have low self esteem). To add on, I have mood swings.

Oh well, taking things easy now.

Not sleeping at 4am because I don't want to stress myself to sleep "earlier". Weird logic. XD

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year!

Well, Christmas is over at my country but it's still Christmas in US right? So... This still counts. :P

Before I start blahing about my thoughts for 2010, I've got a picture to share. :)

My Christmas Present for this year

A Rubik's Cube from all of our childhood, and a headphone from Jolin "Myself" pre-order signed album (that got shipped back few months ago, which I just collected recently).

So Christmas for this year? Family gathering with Rubik's Cube playing and teaching session, and Scramble Board Game, plus the record of collecting 9900 sunlight because we refused to kill the last zombie in Plant vs Zombie, iPad version. :D

I actually had a twitter and weibo (a China site that is similar to twitter) account but I just prefer blogging. Because well it just seems too casual, so nothing beats blogging. :)

Don't have a tumblr account though because it's too messy for me, unless Jolin decides to create a tumblr account, which is the very reason why I created a twitter and weibo account.

Okay, back to topic. This Christmas, when I was on the way home on my uncle's car, he was saying that I had pessimistic thoughts. But then I was telling my mother, see how contented I am with a Rubik's Cube when all the kids are snatching to play the iPad.

Can a pessimistic person be contented with life's simple things?
Or am I just having too high targets for myself?

To sum up year 2010, it's a special year because:

- 是“爱你依林”年

- Rainie's 2010 album was released on the 1st day of New Year, making it a memorable New Year for me

- I saw Rainie in person at her concert autograph session & her concert (and unexpectedly found my graduated poly senior to go with me, so it's the 1st time I actually had that much to talk to her, not to forget all those silly shouting and cheering and making her cheer with me too)

- Joined RainieDay and met 2 new friends

- Attended F.I.R.'s album autograph session (oh my gosh 1st time), performance at Sheng Shiong show, concert autograph session & concert (and even had a chance to go up the stage to sing with Faye during their concert autograph session)

- Joined MY-FIR and well, met new friends too

- Stopped clinging to a senior friend, and had 2 closer friends

- Formed a group and found out that "Hey, I can be a leader too"

- Less handiwork but more work than ever

- Found out that I can actually do modelling and modelled out such a cute Gomamon who has so far gotten praises from many

- Quit my addiction for coke, and realised that eating sweets made me go less crazy

- Tested my limits on how lack of sleep can I take while still attending school (record of 20 min of sleep with presentation the next day *Claps Claps*)

- Talked to girls in my course from my batch, and even asked 2 of them to join my group :O

- In the same class with Chan Li Yi again after 7 years o.o

- Solved the Rubik's Cube for the 1st time in my life

- Saw, liked and supported an artiste. She's a very nice and cheerful person, and probably the first cancer artiste that I ever liked. :)

- And many more...

But the bold points, is what I feel make this year the most special of all. :)

So seeing that there's so many reasons, I should be happy after all~

2010 I'm going to miss you, but come 2011, anytime when you're ready!

Thursday, December 16, 2010


Now let's check, when is the last time I posted? When I realised that I would prefer to live in a fantasy world than the real world because the real world is too hard to live in? But I must say, not trying to be ironic or anything, I don't think we can prove that this world we live in is real either, because it might be a fake world created by our imagination...

Okay enough of this nonsense, I had a long debate with an extreme atheist at an online forum because of that.

To quote from Autumn's Concerto: "I would still like to believe that there is goodness in this world."

Yes my latest addiction! Or shall I say obsession?
So enough of the sad and pessimistic thoughts for the time being.

No not Autumn's Concerto (下一站,幸福),是慕橙。

6 years ago

6 years later

Her hairstyle looks beautiful at any point of time in this drama. I must say, this is the first time I've taken such a strong liking to any actor's/actress's hair because the make-up team finally put to use what they had learnt!

Not only that, I probably liked her character's personality more than her actual personality. :O

She feels chaste, pure and caring to me. :)

Meh, and I seriously got jealous of her child in the show (although he is born with a sickness that requires lifetime medication and he's not living with his father till he's 6 years old). At least he has love, warmth and cuddle from his mother, which is something I probably wouldn't understand much. Not to mention I've no idea how to hug either... -.-

I got a feeling I'm purposely dragging the speed for me to watch finish the drama because I kind of can't bare to leave her beautiful character.

This show had been released for quite some time, so if I really meant to watch, I would have watched it long ago. However, chancing Ady An (the lead actress in Autumn's Concerto) again in one of my favourite old shows, made me take notice of the character she was acting as in that old show.

Behind the strong personality, lies a weak inner heart that not everyone can see, reminds me of someone...

This is the show. :)

Now back to my old, and not so mundane life.

Life goes on as per normal, or even tougher? The thought of the year 3s graduating soon is kind of sad to me. There's only 4 people in this course whom I can consider my real friends, 2 from my batch, 2 from year 3, so that means once they graduate I wouldn't be able to pop over to their class and chat with them. :(

And this holiday really sucks to the core, with a whole load of homework to complete. HTI2, AMG, 3DLDS, 3DMA and not to forget our "dear" studio project with the last 1/2 presentation(s) before final submission. At this crucial timing, I'm picking up a new thing. Luckily it's scripting, scripting is way better than modelling... ... ...